- 1 year ago
#59349
I have to regress alone. I have cptsd and isolation is something I've tried to cope with since I was 2 for trauma reasons, it is quite literally one of the catalysts for why I have Dissociative Identity Disorder and why I have littles in the first place.
The friends I was able to confide in pushed me away and one stopped talking to me. I tried to find help on a couple of the Reddits but was met with thumbs down and no help. I feel so much worse. All I asked was for activities for regressing alone.
I'm miserable and scared. I feel awful and worthless and am starting to regress into another anxiety attack. Everything is getting fuzzy and I know I'm starting to regress. It's gonna be a whole thing now. It took me 8 years to understand what was happening to me and the last 2 years to even accept and let it happen and not feel guilty/try to stop it.
Now I'm being pushed away and I just want to get rid of my littles. I hate myself. I feel so bad. I never had a mom dad who were there when i cried n everything was people not living and I wanted help. But I'm a burden I'm always in everyone's way. I wanna go away.I'm a selfish person and i wanna stop. I need friends really really bad. I dont know where to go but I think I'm not suppose to ever have friends or samilly I'm really really bad. It's all my fault. I'm really sorry I dont know where else to say things anymore. I'm running out of saef place.
The friends I was able to confide in pushed me away and one stopped talking to me. I tried to find help on a couple of the Reddits but was met with thumbs down and no help. I feel so much worse. All I asked was for activities for regressing alone.
I'm miserable and scared. I feel awful and worthless and am starting to regress into another anxiety attack. Everything is getting fuzzy and I know I'm starting to regress. It's gonna be a whole thing now. It took me 8 years to understand what was happening to me and the last 2 years to even accept and let it happen and not feel guilty/try to stop it.
Now I'm being pushed away and I just want to get rid of my littles. I hate myself. I feel so bad. I never had a mom dad who were there when i cried n everything was people not living and I wanted help. But I'm a burden I'm always in everyone's way. I wanna go away.I'm a selfish person and i wanna stop. I need friends really really bad. I dont know where to go but I think I'm not suppose to ever have friends or samilly I'm really really bad. It's all my fault. I'm really sorry I dont know where else to say things anymore. I'm running out of saef place.