I’m so sorry. Definitely let yourself grieve.
How long was the relationship? Was it online or in-person? Make sure to consider these points. The time and energy you spent building the relationship with your former partner all mattered! This relationship was definitely real even if complex. Thinking of all of that time and effort then it only makes sense to be grieving. You’re reacting normally, and because of that you can rest assured these more intense feelings will pass.
Your profile says: “ I like to praise and show affection to good little girls.” I also see in another post you’ve just made where you’re being flirtatious (by the community’s standards, at least) to another Little who’s posted a photo of themself. Was the relationship polyamorous then? Do make sure you’re prioritizing your healing over your caregiving of others. Let other partners know that you need their patience right now as you grieve and heal. You don’t want to burn yourself out
by rushing yourself.