- 7 years ago
#29095
I used to live with a parent who would emotionally abuse me ehich eventually lead to my addictions and when they found out they would hit me where it hurt because only THEY would know that. Anyways, they only safe way I found to deal with it was by just letting it happen and to try to not let it affect me. My therapist says that because of those "traumatic" events, I developed dissociative disorder. When ever I would get extremely stressed or felt like I was in danger, I kind of just "shut down" and I would feel myself almost like back out of my body. I knew it was my body and this was real but it didn't feel like any of it was. I couldn't feel anything and I couldn't even tell if what my brain told my body to do, was even going to happen. Its scary because once my parent was yelling at me while I was driving them home and I couldn't tell if I was going to turn at the place I told myself to turn or not. Anyways... I know that depression is common but is there anyone like me here?