- 3 years ago
#55565
Okay so a little background on myself (meaning, oversharing time!):
I'm currently 23 years old and I quit highschool when 19 as I was about to finish 12th grade but due to my mental health continously decreasing I quit (something I still feel guilty of) anyway I got slightly better and I tried twice taking a course that gives me the equivalent of 12th grade for the duration of three years but honestly it was so boring that I just got increasingly more frustrated with myself and again my mental health acted up.
TLDR; Both attempts were a failure due to my social anxiety, depression and anxiety (aaand possibly my undiagnosed adhd)
I've felt pretty lost because I can't move forward and though I feel incapable of finding a regular job, it'd be very difficult to find one even if I wanted without graduating. But this year in September I'm gonna start a course to design video games! Which is something I truly want to do! But I still want to finish 12th grade so I'm trying to find ways to finish it online so I don't deal with people too much.
Today I found a way... But sign-ups for this school year ended 31st of December and I believe I could just make the year I'm missing instead of all three years as oppposed to those courses and now I feel like I missed a chance.
I don't even know if I'd make it but at least I would have tried you know? And I'm unsure if this will also be available later this year and I just feel disappointed and kinda sad right now. I've been stuck in the same place for so long doing nothing and I just don't want to be a failure and a burden to others anymore but alas... I guess we'll just see later on
I'm currently 23 years old and I quit highschool when 19 as I was about to finish 12th grade but due to my mental health continously decreasing I quit (something I still feel guilty of) anyway I got slightly better and I tried twice taking a course that gives me the equivalent of 12th grade for the duration of three years but honestly it was so boring that I just got increasingly more frustrated with myself and again my mental health acted up.
TLDR; Both attempts were a failure due to my social anxiety, depression and anxiety (aaand possibly my undiagnosed adhd)
I've felt pretty lost because I can't move forward and though I feel incapable of finding a regular job, it'd be very difficult to find one even if I wanted without graduating. But this year in September I'm gonna start a course to design video games! Which is something I truly want to do! But I still want to finish 12th grade so I'm trying to find ways to finish it online so I don't deal with people too much.
Today I found a way... But sign-ups for this school year ended 31st of December and I believe I could just make the year I'm missing instead of all three years as oppposed to those courses and now I feel like I missed a chance.
I don't even know if I'd make it but at least I would have tried you know? And I'm unsure if this will also be available later this year and I just feel disappointed and kinda sad right now. I've been stuck in the same place for so long doing nothing and I just don't want to be a failure and a burden to others anymore but alas... I guess we'll just see later on
and I am on anti depressives so that's a win though with the pandemic I haven't been able to see my psychiatrist maybe she'll be able to help me more once I can talk to her again but until then I will be trying to the best of my abilities 
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