- 1 year ago
#59254
hi
i wish i knew more technical language so i could be more clear
my name is anna, but i like it when people call me ani. i’m 23, but i’m really about 11/12, i never got to 13. i’m a little
all i want is to be able to stay in the space that i allow myself when i’m alone, and i let myself feel my age. i have lots of stuffies, i let my brain go all fuzzy, i just want to be taken care of. i have so many interests and cute clothes, but i feel constantly judged. the exhaustion of “masking” all day makes me feel like i’m dead by the time i get home. i work at my local university, but i get taken to work. i feel safe around my mom, and i did a little around my ex, but he revealed to me after we broke up that he never liked being my daddy to begin with.
honestly, i’m just looking for advice. i have to be at college all day, and i feel so alone. i feel crumbly all the time, and i wanna decorate my room all pink and cute but i’m too exhausted from hiding all the time. i regress all the time in public and i don’t know what to do, because i guess it really isn’t even a bad thing. i am a little girl, i just don’t know how to take care of myself.
i’m sorry if this isn’t the sort of post that i’m supposed to submit here, i hope everyone is well

i wish i knew more technical language so i could be more clear

all i want is to be able to stay in the space that i allow myself when i’m alone, and i let myself feel my age. i have lots of stuffies, i let my brain go all fuzzy, i just want to be taken care of. i have so many interests and cute clothes, but i feel constantly judged. the exhaustion of “masking” all day makes me feel like i’m dead by the time i get home. i work at my local university, but i get taken to work. i feel safe around my mom, and i did a little around my ex, but he revealed to me after we broke up that he never liked being my daddy to begin with.
honestly, i’m just looking for advice. i have to be at college all day, and i feel so alone. i feel crumbly all the time, and i wanna decorate my room all pink and cute but i’m too exhausted from hiding all the time. i regress all the time in public and i don’t know what to do, because i guess it really isn’t even a bad thing. i am a little girl, i just don’t know how to take care of myself.
i’m sorry if this isn’t the sort of post that i’m supposed to submit here, i hope everyone is well
