- 4 years ago
#54236
Does just being childlike make you a little? What defines a little?
I am autistic and physically an adult. But I never really became one. I'm drawn to childlike things because it comforts me. A lot of that has a sensory aspect - drinking from a bottle, hugging a stuffed toy, watching a star lamp move across the wall. Some of the cross-over is also due to my autism, as I can't tie shoelaces so I wear Velcro, and I can't tolerate things tight on my body so have to wear a few sizes too big. But I also like cute things just because it comforts me.
It's complicated because I also have a very destructive physically intimate adult interest, caused by being exposed to child abuse. I know what it's like to respond to a adult interest that way. I don't respond like that to childlike things, In fact it's the opposite.
I don't see this as physically intimate. I don't role-play being childlike - it's just the way I am. I'm not into the dominate/submissive mummy/daddy thing or have the urge to act that out. I've no interest in nappies or pretending to be a baby.
I wonder if that makes me a little, or it's just a coincidence.
I am autistic and physically an adult. But I never really became one. I'm drawn to childlike things because it comforts me. A lot of that has a sensory aspect - drinking from a bottle, hugging a stuffed toy, watching a star lamp move across the wall. Some of the cross-over is also due to my autism, as I can't tie shoelaces so I wear Velcro, and I can't tolerate things tight on my body so have to wear a few sizes too big. But I also like cute things just because it comforts me.
It's complicated because I also have a very destructive physically intimate adult interest, caused by being exposed to child abuse. I know what it's like to respond to a adult interest that way. I don't respond like that to childlike things, In fact it's the opposite.
I don't see this as physically intimate. I don't role-play being childlike - it's just the way I am. I'm not into the dominate/submissive mummy/daddy thing or have the urge to act that out. I've no interest in nappies or pretending to be a baby.
I wonder if that makes me a little, or it's just a coincidence.