- 4 years ago
#53683
Hii i really need help and i feel more upset and in need of my little space then i ever was. I know this is very long but i would love if you could read and help me.
So i'm kind of seeing someone. He's my first ever boyfriend and daddy.
He's a lot older then me. A bit over twice my age and he's a busy business man. We do not live in the same country.
I'm his first little girl and the youngest girl he's ever dated.
Sometimes he is not available to talk for a few days or only text once a day and that makes me feel upset and unwanted.
We met once after talking for a few months and it wasn't what i expected. He got sick and slept for hours everyday and i pretty much was alone the whole trip. I always felt inscure about my body (something he knows) and i felt like once he saw me i was not what he wanted.
When i came back home we talked very little and were supposed to meet for another trip a month and a half after.
He said he was coming and then didn't answer my texts 3 days before the trip. A few hours before i was supposed to leave for the airport he said something came up (and explained what) and that he will not be coming.
Now when i send him a pic he doesn't call me beautiful anymore or get excited by me.. when we talk it's a lot of sex talk which i love but i need more.. whenever he calls me babygirl or text sweet things my heart melt and it's like everything is fine. Then he's not texting for a few days and all my inscurities come crushing down and i find myself crying. My friends tell me to breakup but i feel like i will never find someone who will understand my sexsual needs like he does.
Maybe he's just not aware what ddlg means or doesn't fully gets what he should do as a daddy. I really hope someone can help me and tell me if it's something they experienced or what to do.
So i'm kind of seeing someone. He's my first ever boyfriend and daddy.
He's a lot older then me. A bit over twice my age and he's a busy business man. We do not live in the same country.
I'm his first little girl and the youngest girl he's ever dated.
Sometimes he is not available to talk for a few days or only text once a day and that makes me feel upset and unwanted.
We met once after talking for a few months and it wasn't what i expected. He got sick and slept for hours everyday and i pretty much was alone the whole trip. I always felt inscure about my body (something he knows) and i felt like once he saw me i was not what he wanted.
When i came back home we talked very little and were supposed to meet for another trip a month and a half after.
He said he was coming and then didn't answer my texts 3 days before the trip. A few hours before i was supposed to leave for the airport he said something came up (and explained what) and that he will not be coming.
Now when i send him a pic he doesn't call me beautiful anymore or get excited by me.. when we talk it's a lot of sex talk which i love but i need more.. whenever he calls me babygirl or text sweet things my heart melt and it's like everything is fine. Then he's not texting for a few days and all my inscurities come crushing down and i find myself crying. My friends tell me to breakup but i feel like i will never find someone who will understand my sexsual needs like he does.
Maybe he's just not aware what ddlg means or doesn't fully gets what he should do as a daddy. I really hope someone can help me and tell me if it's something they experienced or what to do.