- 5 years ago
#52454
Good morning all! Please bear with me as I learn the rules, and direct or coach me as needed.
My name is Adam. I’m 27 years old, and have always been an extremely social person. I love to talk to people and make friends. I truly enjoy being kind to people; I don’t believe there is enough of it in this world. I happen to live in the south United States (AR specifically) and I have waist length dreadlocks I’ve been growing out for 13 years! Needless to say, this gets some unwanted attention from some bigoted people sometimes.
I am also in an aggressive sales position as far as career goes. I have to be on my game more often than not if I want to bring home money to provide for my fiancé and sweet sweet puppy dog (Mini dachshund named doc )
My partner is a wonderful person who I think just doesn’t have the drive or motivation to get up and get things done to completion. A lot of half booty work.
All of this (and if the rules allow I can explain my mommy issues as well) combines to me feeling exhausted. I don’t want to have to take care of everyone all the time. I do it because I have to. I just want to give up control and ‘let someone else drive’ sometimes.
I LOVE watching and reading science fiction things. Altered carbon on netflix was great enough to watch twice and then order the book (still reading). I love the Star Trek series, Discovery has been an interesting take on the universe! I also like playing video games, like Destiny and Skyrim. Well I really used to, but I feel like it’s just another thing I have to control so I don’t play but maybe once or twice a week.
I’ve spent several months looking at different things like BeDeeSeM or dominatrix. I want a woman to make decisions for me, take a little bit of control, and take care of me while still appreciating the work I do to please and serve. But a lot of BeDeeSeM is very physical punishment focused, and less reward based and disciplined. I crave those things. I want to be rewarded for what I do. Appreciated. And then taken care of in return. I want to be able to mow the lawn and then come in to get my feet squeezed for 5 minutes. I want to squeeze her feet and make her feel appreciated too. But I also want to be reminded and disciplined for, say, forgetting to unload the dishwasher. In my search though, I find myself drawn to Mommy Domme. And I find a physically intimate satisfaction in something as simple as induced lactation. It feels like a reward for making her happy. And at the same time it’s like giving up power and control to allow a woman to make me please her, and get HER milk on my face.
I’m not sure where I fall, I feel like mommy dommes are looking to take care of little boys? But I don’t want to feel like a little boy, I guess I just want to feel like a nurtured young adult who gets to play games, watch movies, do a LITTLE BIT of work to take care of a home, and get rewarded for doing it.
Can someone help point me towards community or forums to research? Or does my desire fit in this community at all? I hope so..
I’m really sorry for being so long-winded but I feel like I’d like you to get to know me, and that might allow for some honest pointers on community? Thanks! Looking forward to interacting with you all.
My name is Adam. I’m 27 years old, and have always been an extremely social person. I love to talk to people and make friends. I truly enjoy being kind to people; I don’t believe there is enough of it in this world. I happen to live in the south United States (AR specifically) and I have waist length dreadlocks I’ve been growing out for 13 years! Needless to say, this gets some unwanted attention from some bigoted people sometimes.
I am also in an aggressive sales position as far as career goes. I have to be on my game more often than not if I want to bring home money to provide for my fiancé and sweet sweet puppy dog (Mini dachshund named doc )
My partner is a wonderful person who I think just doesn’t have the drive or motivation to get up and get things done to completion. A lot of half booty work.
All of this (and if the rules allow I can explain my mommy issues as well) combines to me feeling exhausted. I don’t want to have to take care of everyone all the time. I do it because I have to. I just want to give up control and ‘let someone else drive’ sometimes.
I LOVE watching and reading science fiction things. Altered carbon on netflix was great enough to watch twice and then order the book (still reading). I love the Star Trek series, Discovery has been an interesting take on the universe! I also like playing video games, like Destiny and Skyrim. Well I really used to, but I feel like it’s just another thing I have to control so I don’t play but maybe once or twice a week.
I’ve spent several months looking at different things like BeDeeSeM or dominatrix. I want a woman to make decisions for me, take a little bit of control, and take care of me while still appreciating the work I do to please and serve. But a lot of BeDeeSeM is very physical punishment focused, and less reward based and disciplined. I crave those things. I want to be rewarded for what I do. Appreciated. And then taken care of in return. I want to be able to mow the lawn and then come in to get my feet squeezed for 5 minutes. I want to squeeze her feet and make her feel appreciated too. But I also want to be reminded and disciplined for, say, forgetting to unload the dishwasher. In my search though, I find myself drawn to Mommy Domme. And I find a physically intimate satisfaction in something as simple as induced lactation. It feels like a reward for making her happy. And at the same time it’s like giving up power and control to allow a woman to make me please her, and get HER milk on my face.
I’m not sure where I fall, I feel like mommy dommes are looking to take care of little boys? But I don’t want to feel like a little boy, I guess I just want to feel like a nurtured young adult who gets to play games, watch movies, do a LITTLE BIT of work to take care of a home, and get rewarded for doing it.
Can someone help point me towards community or forums to research? Or does my desire fit in this community at all? I hope so..
I’m really sorry for being so long-winded but I feel like I’d like you to get to know me, and that might allow for some honest pointers on community? Thanks! Looking forward to interacting with you all.