- 5 years ago
#49183
I've recently found out I am a little. I always thought there was something wrong with me because as I reached 10 years of age I didn't want to stop playing with dolls and toys, I had a massive collection of stuffies, lived in my onsies, had a vivid and active imagination, loved coloring and still sucked my thumb as a means of calming myself. I was often told by my parents to "act your age" and for me that was hard. I felt out of place among others my age and I thought maybe I was broken. It wasn't until my most recent relationship where I could be open with my sexualities and kinks that I realized there was nothing wrong with me and that I was always acting my age. However, my potential daddy at the time said I wasn't a little and he didn't want me. That statement shattered me, and it made my bigself cry, confusing both my bigself and my littleself and it made me feel weird and like I truly didn't know myself. I still throw tantrums, binge watch cartoons and disney movies, color, play with my toys, take naps, build pillow forts, drink from a bottle, suck my thumb and feel like I am a young child and little. Is there something wrong with me? Am I really not what I thought I was? Can someone help me and tell me what's wrong with me?