- 6 years ago
#37681
Haha, that rhymes.
Bad jokes aside: lately I've been having pessimistic views of the world and losing hope on the positives. I feel like this world has more hate than love, and it makes me really sad. I feel like everyone is against each other and no one supports each other. Whenever I go around, I see hate, hostility, and conflict between people. What makes me feel even worse is when people are unforgiving towards each other. When I see people being hostile and angry, it makes me very scared and I want to hide from everyone. Some people I've talked to would tell me "that's life, deal with it" but I just don't want to. Life doesn't have to be this way. It could be so much better, but instead what I see makes me think that the world is full of hate. I've had experiences where I would get into a conflict with friends and they would turn against me. I've always been scared of this happening to anyone I talk to.
Now, I rarely have suicidal thoughts. They're not all that severe, and I never act on them, but sometimes when I think about this it makes me not want to live in the world anymore. Especially if "that's how life is." Again, I don't have thoughts on actually taking action and these thoughts are rare for me to have, but these thoughts do cross my mind.
When I lose hope like this, it makes me want to crave for a mommy's love and care even more. But when I'm on my own (which I have been for all of my life), I don't know how to cope with these thoughts.
Bad jokes aside: lately I've been having pessimistic views of the world and losing hope on the positives. I feel like this world has more hate than love, and it makes me really sad. I feel like everyone is against each other and no one supports each other. Whenever I go around, I see hate, hostility, and conflict between people. What makes me feel even worse is when people are unforgiving towards each other. When I see people being hostile and angry, it makes me very scared and I want to hide from everyone. Some people I've talked to would tell me "that's life, deal with it" but I just don't want to. Life doesn't have to be this way. It could be so much better, but instead what I see makes me think that the world is full of hate. I've had experiences where I would get into a conflict with friends and they would turn against me. I've always been scared of this happening to anyone I talk to.
Now, I rarely have suicidal thoughts. They're not all that severe, and I never act on them, but sometimes when I think about this it makes me not want to live in the world anymore. Especially if "that's how life is." Again, I don't have thoughts on actually taking action and these thoughts are rare for me to have, but these thoughts do cross my mind.
When I lose hope like this, it makes me want to crave for a mommy's love and care even more. But when I'm on my own (which I have been for all of my life), I don't know how to cope with these thoughts.