- 9 months ago
When I was a young kid and started wearing in secret, I don’t think I could have explained why. I just loved diapers. Everything about them. Of course also being in them. I always felt the most ‘right’ or normally happy when I was in diapers. Everything just felt better. As an adult, honestly it’s still the same thing. If I’m not in diapers, I just don’t feel like myself. Of course there are factors of comfort, security, convenience. Also certain ‘naughtiness’, playfulness, childish and fun factors. Although I’m not trying to make a direct comparison or in any way reduce the real and difficult nature of being transgender, but I think for a lot of diaper lovers, especially those of us who have become life long diaper wearers, it’s a very mental thing, in that we just don’t feel completely our true selves unless we have diapers. It’s an expression of who we really are in a way. And without them it can often be difficult and even depressing. I’m sure there are some specific psychological definitions that can be applied here, but I wouldn’t know them. I can only say that from a very young age, roughly about 5 years old, I knew that I didn’t want to be out of diapers. I spent many years from then to adulthood trying to secretly get back in them. Slowly transitioning into a 24/7 diaper wearer and fulfilling a lifelong struggle when I reached 20. I’m ‘me’ when I’m in diapers, in a way that I’m somehow ‘incomplete’ when I’m not in them. I’m sure that’s actually pretty true for most people in that they connect their happiness and whole existence to some material object, person, place, etc. For me that’s for whatever reason, always been diapers.