[MowMowEllie3]

So, yes, Ive warn them, and yes I like it.

Lately , its not so much shame ive gotten, by someone purposly trying to.
its more simply my own shame. Have you ever found yourself in a Kroger or a (food/stuff store) and go past the baby aisle but your with people who know your into it, or maybe dont, and you still cant bring yourself to be comfortable with wanting, or even asking someone who supports you financially, or helps sometimes, or just is there with you, if you could buy them.
I live with my Fiance, his aunt, and now, his friend who stays over weeks on end.
We went to the Kroger, and I saw the diapers, which happened to be my favs ever, the overnights, with the little owls on them, for 5-12 yr olds.
THEY ACTUALLY FIT ME. Mind you im FIve foot tall and sort of curvy. So finding a diaper that isnt for adults that fits , is cute, and works i amazingggggg!

So I found myself entranced, Staring at this lady, stocking these diapers, and here we are in the middle of a kroger, buying lunch meat,
hypnotized. Frozen in place, with my fiances aunt and echoing in my head "steal the diapers"
And im like.
>_> im not going to resort to stealing, just ask, and then before we know it we are walking again. Im sent into littlespace, already wearing my red pleaded tarten skirt, knee high socks, knee high convers, and a barbie shirt, and my hair in piggy tails with my little pony bows,
holding onto my daddys hand, looking around like a little kid, that littlespace feeling rushing through my body.


My daddy and I both are out of jobs right now, and im here with all these wants and desires.
Wanting my daddy to take me out, to build a bear, and watch cute movies, and get me diapers, but he isnt really into all that stuff.

hes not a full time daddy, and quite honestly most of the time he plays dark souls 3 with his friend, and I just sit in my room, or do something by myself. But i dont like doing things by myself. I want my daddy.
Ive been trying to find littles in my area so i have someone to play with, and not be so lonely.
I have some friends, but they are always busy.
And its hard, when im trying to get a ged, and study, to get a job,
when i have no ged, or Prior experiance.

Theres alot of Littlespace stuff I would really like especially considering the fact my birthday is coming up. I feel kind of selfish.
I want diapers, and a new paci, and some cute onsies, And a Lolita littlespace dress.

And coloring pages.
But the whole diapers thing Is kind of something ive been wanting to get more into.
And be more open about but that seems to be one of the biggest frowned upon parts of the entire comunity, because for some reason its so weird!!!