- 8 years ago
#8686
So I saw this question on the ddlg forum and figured I would reiterate since I could relate.
Since finding out you were a little, do you ever think back to your childhood and find that things make more sense?
Like I was like 8 or 9 sneaking around to watch barney, embarrassed because it was a "baby" show. I'd also pretend to drink out of my baby dolls bottles and remember specifically my little cousin had this sippy cup toy and I was always so upset that I couldn't find the top because I couldn't drink out of it. Even as I've gotten older I've found it so much easier to talk to kids because I could always relate more to them and I liked (and still do) talking to them more than kids my own age. Then when I was like 15-16/17 I would write stories and in the stories my main character would have DID (disassociate identity disorder) and would only have one alter, (which is super inaccurate) and the alter would be 4 years old. She was a reflection of my desire to be able to be 4 years old in a relationship (but my realization that I couldn't be bc what boy in his right mind would be down with that? Lol @ 15 year old me). (also I had an obsession with a TV show about a character with the same disorder) but then a few years later when I came across ddlg I thought of my stories and I was like Woah...I knew before i knew
Anyways does anyone else feel that way kind of? I don't even know if that makes sense and it was very long, I am sorry
Since finding out you were a little, do you ever think back to your childhood and find that things make more sense?
Like I was like 8 or 9 sneaking around to watch barney, embarrassed because it was a "baby" show. I'd also pretend to drink out of my baby dolls bottles and remember specifically my little cousin had this sippy cup toy and I was always so upset that I couldn't find the top because I couldn't drink out of it. Even as I've gotten older I've found it so much easier to talk to kids because I could always relate more to them and I liked (and still do) talking to them more than kids my own age. Then when I was like 15-16/17 I would write stories and in the stories my main character would have DID (disassociate identity disorder) and would only have one alter, (which is super inaccurate) and the alter would be 4 years old. She was a reflection of my desire to be able to be 4 years old in a relationship (but my realization that I couldn't be bc what boy in his right mind would be down with that? Lol @ 15 year old me). (also I had an obsession with a TV show about a character with the same disorder) but then a few years later when I came across ddlg I thought of my stories and I was like Woah...I knew before i knew
Anyways does anyone else feel that way kind of? I don't even know if that makes sense and it was very long, I am sorry