- 4 years ago
#53750
I know what you mean. I am in the same situation. I always had this childish part of me that I had at home. I loved my stuffed animals, cartoons, I have a full laugh when I find something funny.
At work I was a very dominant female because I worked in an all male envirment. You could not be see any other way. I was very sucessuful. Until one day, I was hit by a car. Then I had to give up what I loved. I had to learn how to speak again and everything.
But in that I also lost my child because the person who is taking care of me slowly got me to give up all those things. Just recently, I woke up and realized all the things I used to love like watching cartoons on Saterday morning are frowned on now. I'm looking at myself wonderig how this happened.
A guy online asked me if I liked being a little cause he liked it. I said no! Right away. Frightened. If I said yes, then I would open a space to me that is fragile and he could hurt me. I don't know to trust someone since I've been told to hide for so long. If I come out, what happens. I might cry. I know I would.
So I know what you mean. I know what it means to hide whats inside. To get hit under the table when you are behaving inappropriately. I hope you find your space. You have a better chance then me.
At work I was a very dominant female because I worked in an all male envirment. You could not be see any other way. I was very sucessuful. Until one day, I was hit by a car. Then I had to give up what I loved. I had to learn how to speak again and everything.
But in that I also lost my child because the person who is taking care of me slowly got me to give up all those things. Just recently, I woke up and realized all the things I used to love like watching cartoons on Saterday morning are frowned on now. I'm looking at myself wonderig how this happened.
A guy online asked me if I liked being a little cause he liked it. I said no! Right away. Frightened. If I said yes, then I would open a space to me that is fragile and he could hurt me. I don't know to trust someone since I've been told to hide for so long. If I come out, what happens. I might cry. I know I would.
So I know what you mean. I know what it means to hide whats inside. To get hit under the table when you are behaving inappropriately. I hope you find your space. You have a better chance then me.