I had an uncomfortable littlespace nightmare
Posted: |November 2nd, 2019|, 5:04 pm
Honestly I feel like I need to vent this. I don't normally dream about myself. When I do it tends to be uncomfortable nightmares like tonight. Basically my bio parents who are very anti everything immaturity. Decided to punish me by treating me like a toddler. I hated everything about it and it felt extremely uncomfortable being scolded like a 2 year old and being told not to do something and stuff as if I was a toddler.
You would think I would love being able to be immature, but it felt so icky and i feel like it has soured the idea of being little. But, on the other hand it was all the restrictions and none of the fun parts you know? I was just told not to do this or that, being forced to hold hands in public and talked as if I was a toddler in front of normal people I see every day. It wasn't like i was allowed to play with toys or have any real fun.
I'm trying to tell myself it's different for many reasons, but it does worry me a little specially since I normally have a lot of trouble with feeling little and only just (after the nightmare) realize how I've had bad concept of what littlespace really was. The idea of holding hands with a caretaker mama girlfriend, and her treating me like a little girl in public normally makes me feel all gooey. So it's not like i have an issue with the idea of being little in public.
Thank you for reading
You would think I would love being able to be immature, but it felt so icky and i feel like it has soured the idea of being little. But, on the other hand it was all the restrictions and none of the fun parts you know? I was just told not to do this or that, being forced to hold hands in public and talked as if I was a toddler in front of normal people I see every day. It wasn't like i was allowed to play with toys or have any real fun.
I'm trying to tell myself it's different for many reasons, but it does worry me a little specially since I normally have a lot of trouble with feeling little and only just (after the nightmare) realize how I've had bad concept of what littlespace really was. The idea of holding hands with a caretaker mama girlfriend, and her treating me like a little girl in public normally makes me feel all gooey. So it's not like i have an issue with the idea of being little in public.
Thank you for reading