- 5 years ago
#49291
Hello. This might come across as a strange topic given my previous track record of creating complicated psychological and philosophical posts about my identity, so I'll try to be a bit more simplistic given the subject matter. Basically, do you feel like people are born with given personality and over time, they learn to express that type of personality in newer ways, or do you think that personality is malleable and capable of changing over time?
I ask this because I've noticed something interesting about myself recently. I've noticed myself more willing to express my feelings about things, and then when it comes to small and minor things, I end up feeling like crying. Like today, I was just playing Monopoly with my friends, but I ended up losing, and I got this really big urge to start crying. I realized that it was likely irrational, and that crying in front of a bunch of guys that I'm trying to impress would be a really bad idea, so I tried suppressing it, but it went on for a long time until I was able to turn my thoughts away from the scene.
And then it reminds me of another time two weeks ago where I went to my Toastmasters club and people laughed at my scientific evaluation on dieting and sugar addiction, and they said I went 2 seconds over so my speech didn't qualify. It made me feel very emotional and I started to feel like crying, but that sadness turned into frustration and I wasn't very pleasant for the rest of the meeting. I told my mom about this, and she said that I seemed to have to personalities: one that's very serious and another that is very playful, and it's not very fun to mix the two. But today just got me thinking: what if it's just more like I want to cry but when I suppress it, then I become irritable? Should I just be searching for different outlets towards this behavior, or do you think it's a bit more static than it lets on?
I ask this because I've noticed something interesting about myself recently. I've noticed myself more willing to express my feelings about things, and then when it comes to small and minor things, I end up feeling like crying. Like today, I was just playing Monopoly with my friends, but I ended up losing, and I got this really big urge to start crying. I realized that it was likely irrational, and that crying in front of a bunch of guys that I'm trying to impress would be a really bad idea, so I tried suppressing it, but it went on for a long time until I was able to turn my thoughts away from the scene.
And then it reminds me of another time two weeks ago where I went to my Toastmasters club and people laughed at my scientific evaluation on dieting and sugar addiction, and they said I went 2 seconds over so my speech didn't qualify. It made me feel very emotional and I started to feel like crying, but that sadness turned into frustration and I wasn't very pleasant for the rest of the meeting. I told my mom about this, and she said that I seemed to have to personalities: one that's very serious and another that is very playful, and it's not very fun to mix the two. But today just got me thinking: what if it's just more like I want to cry but when I suppress it, then I become irritable? Should I just be searching for different outlets towards this behavior, or do you think it's a bit more static than it lets on?