- 5 years ago
#48697
When my ex wife left me I was devastated. To add to the pain and cruelty, she used my adult interest as a tool for extortion. She blackmailed me into accepting divorce with no equitable distribution. She took everything and left me with a house I couldnt afford by myself and the worst sting of all was that she blackmailed me, and never even confessed the affair she had been having.
It has taken a few years to feel ok living with the pain of the betrayals, affairs, and extortion. I finally started feeling attached to a gf who is a cg and supports my individuality. She takes control and sometimes diapers me in chastity for the days when she goes to work. Its been fun and allowed me to open up to intimate vulnerabilities once again. I enjoy our Dom/Sub relationship even though there are signs that she is jealous and controlling. It's fun and plays into my sub/diaper wearing/ humiliated side. Until it goes too far...A few nights ago she got angry when a friend unexpectedly stopped by. When I didn't make him leave but rather visited for about an hour, she became furious. When I came back in she was throwing my diapers into a bag and yelling about how she was gonna post stuff etc. Long story short it was an instant flashback to the blackmail from my ex. I no longer feel safe being vulnerable and am not sure if I should be in a committed relationship with this person even though I really like her. Also, it's the first time in my life someone accepted my adult interest. I'm rather stressed and hurt, I dont know if I can feel safe... Advice?
It has taken a few years to feel ok living with the pain of the betrayals, affairs, and extortion. I finally started feeling attached to a gf who is a cg and supports my individuality. She takes control and sometimes diapers me in chastity for the days when she goes to work. Its been fun and allowed me to open up to intimate vulnerabilities once again. I enjoy our Dom/Sub relationship even though there are signs that she is jealous and controlling. It's fun and plays into my sub/diaper wearing/ humiliated side. Until it goes too far...A few nights ago she got angry when a friend unexpectedly stopped by. When I didn't make him leave but rather visited for about an hour, she became furious. When I came back in she was throwing my diapers into a bag and yelling about how she was gonna post stuff etc. Long story short it was an instant flashback to the blackmail from my ex. I no longer feel safe being vulnerable and am not sure if I should be in a committed relationship with this person even though I really like her. Also, it's the first time in my life someone accepted my adult interest. I'm rather stressed and hurt, I dont know if I can feel safe... Advice?