- 8 years ago
#5390
Hi there everyone. Just curious if anyone else is stuck in little space all the time due to BPD. I used to think there was something horribly wrong with me before I was diagnosed and learned I'd stopped emotionally maturing after my mom died when I was seven. I never grew up and never really wanted to even though the world told me I had to. I learned to stop caring what judgmental thought of me and realized I really like how I turned out. I'm exactly the way I said I wanted to be when I was a little kid. I didn't give up my dreams, or stop playing with toys, or settle for other people's content lives just cuz I wanted to fit in. If I had a time machine and visited my self when I was small I'd be so happy to see how cute, and colorful, and unique I turned out to be. I ended up typing a lot more than I planned, but I think it's otay. If anyone has gone through something similar I'd love to hear about it. Feel free to PM me.